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Episode #150: I Belong To Me

Welcome back to the pod my queer-dos, loves and everyone in between.

It feels really fitting to be coming back to the pod at this time of year — not just post the first birthday I’ve had in years that wasn’t surrounded by chaos and pain because of my personal life, but also because this marks the 5 year anniversary of the pod. Crazy balls.

So much of the last six months since I saw you last here has been me healing post divorce (and all that came with leaving) and integrating the values I have into my day to day world. And, in that, so much of my focus has been on belonging — both to myself, and what I want belonging in community and in space to look and feel like, both within interpersonal relationships and as the artist and facilitator that I am.

And in todays episode, we deep dive into all of that and more.

LINKS MENTIONED IN TODAYS EPISODE:

Fucking Queer Merch

Episode 149 : Divorce Is Not A Dirty Word

32 Things Instagram Post

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Episode #146: Scars Don't Mean You're Broken

We all have scars.

The physical ones that we see, and all of the ones that are there that we can’t.

But we feel them. We know them. And, sometimes, we discover we have them years into our adult lives and the shame, the guilt, the overwhelm of processing it all can be all consuming and incredibly fucking daunting to face.

TW: self loathing, body image, medical procedures/needles

In todays episode and in honor of mental health awareness month, Amanda talks about her journey with scars — both physical and beyond. And shares some truth bombs & support around how you can start your own journey in detaching yourself from the shame and guilt of the scars you keep.

LINKS MENTIONED IN TODAYS EPISODE:

Episode 144

Amanda’s book, I Chopped Off My Tits

WORK & CONNECT WITH AMANDA:

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Episode #144: The Growth Is In The Unlearning, Baby

Todays episode is all about the “growth mindset” mentality vs. the process of unbecoming, unlearning and coming home to ourselves that so many of you asked Amanda for after her instagram stories last week.

As someone who lives her life outside of many of the traditional norm boxes that our society is rooted in, this has been on her heart big time, lately, and it’s clearly been on yours too. We’re surely a unique bunch and the Live Your F*ck Yes Life community wouldn’t be what it is without all of you — my fellow people pleasing, trauma navigating, queer and/or non monogamous humans (and beyond!)

So pop in your headphones, snag something yummy and cozy if it feels good to you & let’s dive in.

TW: eating disorder cycles, diet culture, trauma, panic attacks

Things she talks about in todays episode:

  • The desperation for true belonging

  • The environment of the “fit in” mentality to thrive and be enough

  • The good and the harmful pillars around the growth mindset & pop culture “hustle & grind” mentality

  • Her experience moving from Canada to the US at nineteen and how growing up in and around immigrant families has impacted her experience living in the US

  • Moving through the “starving artist” trope for the last decade as an actor & performer

  • The impact of capitalism, the patriarchy & white supremacy on her choices, paths & perspectives

  • Navigating feelings of broken-ness, fear, lack of purpose, panic & beyond

photos by Kyle Wilson , Zeke D and Cam Frontain