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Episode #160: How I'm Really Doing | A Divorce Update

One of the most common things I get asked by you all is how I’m really doing post / during my divorce, and I get it. I haven’t really talked about how I’m doing in a direct way regarding this particular piece of my story and while that’s been intentional — I realized that not doing so was also a disservice to all of you and to this process.

If there’s anything I’ve realized through this experience, it’s that there are not a lot of blueprints out there on how to navigate the process of a divorce. What you might expect. Shit you might face.

I thought I could have predicted what the last year and half would look like. And I was wrong. It’s been a rollercoaster. One that I’m finally sharing more about on todays episode.

If you are going through a divorce or a de-escalation, please give yourself some grace. This shit is hard. Complicated. Messy. And if you know someone going through either, reach out to them and tell them you’re there.

PS: my neighbors downstairs were having what sounded like a rave during the only time I had to record this so, enjoy the weird ambient music LOL

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Episode #149: Divorce Doesn't Have To Be A Dirty Word

I wasn’t sure that I was going to share this episode today, but it felt right, so here we are. And, in true Amanda fashion, we’re getting wildly vulnerable and moving through the mess on our season finale of the podcast about something so many of you have been wondering for months:

Divorce.

Specifically my divorce.

This episode is messy, because divorce is messy.

This episode is filled with feels, because transitions and grief like this brings up a lot.

This episode also tackles the notion that divorce, de-escalations and breakups don’t have to be (and often rarely are) this cut and dry, black and white, good / bad thing.

Sometimes, divorce is the very thing that sets you free. It is and was for me.

Things Amanda talks about in todays episode:

  • What this episode is not going to be about

  • Boundaries with respect to when / what to share around this chapter

  • The 3 life events that are most disruptive to our nervous system / mental health

  • The difference between a breakup and a de-escalation

  • Leading with love

  • The reason for the divorce had nothing to do with polyamory

  • Being a big feeler, relationship anarchist values, the things she’s been doing to support herself during this time & what’s next


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Fucking Queer Merch

All About Love by Bell Hooks

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Episode #140: Finding Steadiness Amidst the Storm (How I'm Really Doing)

After a short intermission, we’re back for the rest of the season and Amanda is kicking off this post hiatus with a solo episode sharing about what she’s been navigating and how she’s really doing. Hint: it’s been really f*cking hard.

Things she talks about in todays episode:

  • the intense losses she’s experienced the last 2 years

  • the excavation process of owning identities and navigating change

  • grief, and the beast it is

  • navigating depression for the first time in her life

  • the 3 practices that have allowed me not to lose myself amidst this time

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Episode #126: WTF To Do When You're Heartbroken AF

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On todays solo episode of the podcast, Amanda deep dives into her journey through heartbreak and grief over the last year of her life.

Grief is a beast. And the last year has been a year where collectively and individually, we’ve been grieving in a deeper way than ever before. Friendships have shifted. Longterm partnerships have ended. And dating? Don’t even get her started on it.

Check out todays episode for a deep behind the scenes dive into the struggles with heartbreak and grief that Amanda has faced recently and the major takeaways they have given her. If you’ve navigated heartbreak and the end of relationships in your life, this episode is for you, love.

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Live Your F*ck Yes Life Community — become a Patron!

Sign up for a 1:1 peer support session

Let’s Talk Polyamory community zoom call

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Episode #125: Eat, Pray, #FML with Gabrielle Stone

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This gal? She’s Eat, Pray, Love but with all the real talk and vulnerability and delicious messiness that is real life. She’s been through it all — a massive divorce post affair, heartbreak, a solo adventure trip to find herself. All of which led to her writing her book Eat, Pray, #FML — and in todays episode, we deep dive into all things love, heartbreak, grief, self love and beyond.

Gabrielle Stone is no stranger to the world of entertainment. Growing up on set with her legendary scream-queen mother, Dee Wallace (Cujo, E.T.), she had days of licking off mommy’s fake blood and watching behind the scenes movie magic. Seeing the world with mom and dad gave her the travel bug at an early age—until Gabrielle experienced a real-life horror when she lost her father suddenly at age seven. After many years in the industry herself, Stone transitioned from meaty acting roles to writing and directing. Her award-winning films It Happened Again Last Night and After Emma gained her awards for writing, directing, and acting—but she had a bigger role in life that would soon present itself: freaking badass.

 After the rug was vigorously pulled out from under her when her husband’s affair came to light, she found herself falling into the arms of another man. After a second failed attempt at love and a massive heartbreak, she decided that instead of landing flat on her ass—she’d make a career out of it.

Things we talk about in todays episode:

  • The journey that led her to write her book

  • Her experience of and perspective around grief and heartbreak

  • The biggest thing she’s learned on her journey

  • Patterns in relationships and where they come from

  • Love bombing

  • What her next book is about

  • Red flags to look out for when dating, some never before shared truths about the characters in her book and beyond

LINKS MENTIONED IN TODAYS EPISODE:

Live Your F*ck Yes Life Patreon

Video version of the podcast

Gabrielles website: https://www.eatprayfml.com/

Gabrielles Instagram | Tik Tok - @gabrielle_stone

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Amanda’s Instagram | Website

Amanda’s book, I Chopped Off My Tits

1:1 coaching with Amanda — I am accepting 1-2 new coaching clients for 2021. Apply here to set up an initial call to see if this work together is a good fit.

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Episode #106: Using Pleasure To Cope With Trauma And Grief - A Conversation with Alyssa Pressman

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Hi loves.

Todays episode is different — you may notice that there’s no typical intro music/snippets — because it didn’t feel right today. This week has been heavy. Hell, this year has been a fucking trip. And I wrestled with the idea of not releasing a podcast episode today — I wasn’t sure how we would be experiencing this post election day time. And when I woke up yesterday morning, in a mix of deep feels/sadness and hope for a brighter future in the US, I knew that this conversation, with a soul human of mine, was one that I needed to share with all of you today.

And with that, I’d like to introduce to you my friend and kindred spirit, Alyssa Pressman (she/her).

Alyssa is a Licensed Clinical Therapist & Certified Sex + Relationship Coach. She specializes in pleasure & joy post trauma, grief & with chronic illness. She loves supporting women in moving closer to themselves, to other people and to creating lives that feel in deep alignment with their unique desires. She is a BRCA1 mutation carrier like me, and a person living with chronic illness and pain. Reaching for joy and pleasure has been deeply healing for her. When not working, you can find her dancing, lounging, reading or cooking, usually scantily clad if not naked. She loves talking, learning and sharing on all things sex, relationships, death, healing & dark nights of the soul-you know, all the super casual things.

I invite you to take this one on a walk outside, or curl up with a cup of tea and absorb these words as a way to get away, for a moment, from the chaos. You are so loved.


Things we discuss in todays episode:

  • Alyssa’s wake up call around a chronic illness that made it impossible to have penetrative sex without serious pain in her younger twenties

  • How her work as a sex & relationship coach started to empower her sexually, in a more wholistic way

  • Pelvic floor struggles

  • BRCA and the other piece of the fear with our mutual diagnosis: ovarian cancer

  • Self pleasure practices & building a relationship with your pussy

  • How to claim your sexuality as your own and experience life changing pleasure

  • Redefining what sex and pleasure is

  • How to talk to your partner(s) around how to have more connected intimacy with one another

  • Boobs, the beauty of being un-partnered, using pleasure as a form of self care and beyond

Episode #31: What nobody tells you about having a miscarriage with Anna Maria Locke

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EPISODE SNEAK PEEK

"I didn't realize that I was afraid of being said until this year and until I went through this loss."

Anna Maria Locke is back on the podcast and today, she's sharing something that so few actually have the courage to talk about.

Miscarriage.

Something that is so taboo in our society to talk about publicly and yet so many women go through it and feel so alone in the process.

Whether you've experienced a miscarriage before, know someone who has, are thinking about getting pregnant or are just navigating a tough season in your life, this episode is a must listen. 

Here are some things we discuss in today's episode:

  • Breaking free of the taboo nature of miscarriages and getting real AF about what it's really like to go through one
  • The fears she's had along the journey
  • What actually happens when we experience grief
  • The endless pursuit of the high vibe life
  • The reality of pregnancy and what no one talks about
  • Getting pregnant is super different than what you may think
  • Tools and resources for support
  • The weird expected timeline of telling others you're pregnant
  • How to arm yourself with some self care tools to help you navigate hardships in your life
  • The beauty and importance of unproductive days  
  • Approaching pregnancy after navigating a miscarriage

LINKS MENTIONED IN TODAY'S EPISODE

The Authentic Woman Series -- use code: 10LOY for 10% off!

EMPOWERED AND FREE RETREAT

Anna's Website | Wild Synchronicity program | Instagram

The Happiness Advantage

Kindara | Natural cycles

Anna's blog post

Anna's Etsy Shop

Episode 2 of the podcast

 

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