relationships

Episode #154: Is Hierarchy In Relationships Ethical? Let's F*cking Talk About It.

Is hierarchy in relationships ethical? A very important question that folks in non monogamous and monogamous relationships alike have been asking and unpacking and holy balls, do we have a lot to say about this subject.

I’ve had a WILD ride when it comes to hierarchy in relationships since I was in high school. Although I didn’t have the language at the time (and internal knowing and understanding that I could exist in any other ways), I’ve always been a queer, ambiamorous, demisexual relationship anarchist. AND I also externally looked like I was existing in and choosing a wildly heteronormative, “traditional” relationship that appeared very hierarchical. And yet, it wasn’t that at all.

Today, we talk about, simply, if hierarchical relationships are ethical.

Hint: (you guessed it), my answer is clear and also nuanced, ‘cause there are so many systems and structures in place in western society that makes this answer much more complicated than a hard YES or NO.

And, as always, I share what experiences I navigated in rectifying with these things in my own personal unlearning process around all things toxic monogamy culture, the patriarchy, heteronormativity and beyond. Let’s get the f*ck into it.


LINKS MENTIONED IN TODAYS EPISODE:

Episode 134: I’m Addicted To You Don’t You Know That You’re Toxic Monogamy

Fucking Queer Merch - use code QUEERDO for 15% off / proceeds go to the Brave Space Alliance

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Episode #143: Let’s Talk Solo Polyamory with Jayda Shuavarnnnasri

After our last episode on the various relationship models, it felt only fitting to expand on the relationship model that I know most folks are usually either very intrigued and excited by or absolutely terrified about considering — and that is: solo polyamory.

I am not a solo polyamorous person. Never have been, and given my personal values and needs (and inherent biases and privileges), I likely will never choose to intentionally step into that path. But I know that it resonates HARD for many folks, and I knew this conversation that I had with Jayda in May 2021 for a workshop, that she consented to sharing on todays episode of the podcast with all of you, was gonna rock your world as much as it did.

Jayda Shuavarnnnasri (she/they) is a queer Southeast Asian sexuality & relationship educator and trauma-sensitive facilitator. Also known as Sex Positive Asian Auntie, she works to liberate folks from sexual shame by creating space for authentic conversations about sexuality, relationships, identity and healing. The topics that excite her most are sexual exploration, identity, transformative justice, and non-conventional relationships. 

Things she highlights & talks about in todays episode:

  • Curiosity & exploration of self in juxtaposition of societal norms

  • Their experience of being cheated on 4 years ago and how that led into research re: non monogamy

  • Nobody really knows what the fuck they’re doing in any relationship style

  • The false perception that non monogamy is the same as being “single & dating”

  • Jayda’s solo polyamory journey

  • The relationship galaxy model

  • Approaching non monogamy from a lens of possibility vs. Rigidity

  • The importance of being trauma informed in opening up your relationship

  • Navigating life as the caregiver/oldest child, choosing to be child free, astrology shiz, core values, shame and beyond

CONNECT/WORK WITH JAYDA:

Jaydas Instagram 

Jumping Off The Relationship Escalator self paced workshop 

Poetry collection: “From A Place of Love”

ADDITIONAL RESOURCES MENTIONED:

Ethical Slut

Opening Up

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Peer support sessions

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Episode #142: You Can F*cking Choose The Way You Do Relationships, And It’s Epic

Confused AF about what kind of relationship model you actually want because all you’ve ever been taught is monogamy or bust? And even THEN, monogamy has soooo much variability from person to person around expectations, needs, what the relationship feels like/looks like, boundaries etc?

Amanda was too.

We aren’t taught this shit. We’re just thrown into the world to figure it out by the seat of our pants, so she’s popping into your earbuds today to talk about just what your options really are, so you can move through your relationships and life decisions from a place that is rooted in your unique values, desires and needs.

Things she talks about in todays episode:

  • A breakdown of the different relationship models, from Monogamy to Relationship Anarchy (all along her Fuck Yes Relationship Model scale) — go to @amandkatherineloy on Instagram for the visual to follow along

  • What model she feels most particularly aligned with

  • The importance of knowing your values

  • How to communicate with your partners so you can have aligned expectations


Episode #141: Dating Is F*cking Hard | A Conversation with Ali (Finding Mr. Height)

If there’s anything I’ve learned since opening up my marriage in 2018 and getting on the dating apps for the first time in my life, it’s that dating is HARD. And I’ve felt really lost on how to approach the dating scene. I know so many of you are in my boat, and I knew an episode on the pod around all things dating was vital, and I couldn’t think of anyone better to have one than the one and only Finding Mr. Height (aka Ali).

Ali is a positive, practical dating coach who’s built social media channels with over 200k followers and conducts one-on-one coaching as well as group seminars. Ali believes that finding love should be the same as any other major goal. We can’t expect it to fall into our laps, nor can we expect the same approach to work for everyone. Using actionable, targeted strategies, Ali will help you define what you're looking for...and then go get it. Find her on TikTok and Instagram @findingmrheight or online at www.findingmrheight.com.

Here are some things we talked about in todays episode:

  • our pasts with dating/dating apps

  • what “success” means in relationships

  • what it feels like to share about your dating life online so transparently

  • our thoughts around west elm caleb

  • dating when you’re in the “public eye” and how to maintain privacy

  • dating red flags, ridiculous dating stories, dick picks and beyond


LINKS MENTIONED IN TODAYS EPISODE:

Ali’s Instagram & Tik Tok

Finding Mr. Height

Apps we talked about: Tinder, Ok Cupid, Match, Hinge, Feeld

WORK & CONNECT WITH AMANDA:

Peer support sessions

Amanda’s Instagram | Website

Amanda’s book, I Chopped Off My Tits

Become a Patreon of the podcast

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Episode #139: Expectations Really Are The Root Of All Heartache

Okay I know the title is cliche but I did that for a reason ‘cause as we get into people pleasing season around these parts and what causes so much harm to so many of us, I wanted to get into something important we’ve never explicitly talked about on the podcast: expectations.

In todays episode, Amanda dives into how expectations have caused a lot of pain in her life, and her system for identifying if expectations we have a rooted in our knowing or a false sense of self, and then how to communicate and interact with our own expectations and the expectations of others.

If you’ve ever had someone not meet your expectations or had someone be upset with you for not meeting theirs, this episode is for you.


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Episode #135: WTF Should We Need & Expect Of Our Partners | A Conversation with Gabrielle Stone

You loved her the last time she was here and she’s BACK!

Gabrielle Stone (she/her), a fan favorite on the Live Your F*ck Yes Life podcast, makes no secret about her past with toxic relationships & a cheating MF of an ex husband. And she’s shared it all in her best selling books and on her podcast and beyond. I’ve been having a lot of conversations in my DMs and with friends about the expectations and needs we place on our partners and, given that I am polyamorous and inherently bring that bias and lens to any conversation around relationships, I wanted to bring on someone who consciously chooses monogamy to have this conversation with and knew that Gabrielle was the gal to call upon.

Things we talk about on this episode:

  • conversations we’ve had with our friends around the important things in relationships

  • our shared need to be seen, loved and championed for who we are

  • how societal norms have informed our paths in relationship dynamics & choices

  • the importance of communication

  • the BS narrative that healing can only happen when we’re single

  • the lessons we can take from the relationships we’ve had and have

  • the idea “soulmate” or “the one”

  • Amanda’s constellation way of viewing her relationships

  • the needs & expectations we have in our romantic partnerships


LINKS MENTIONED IN TODAYS EPISODE:

Live Your F*ck Yes Life Summit: Non Monogamy & Polyamory

Gabrielle’s Instagram

The Ridiculous Misadventures of A Single Girl

Episode 134: I’m Addicted To You Don’t You Know That You’re Toxic Monogamy Culture

Episode 125: Eat, Pray, #FML with Gabrielle Stone

FML Talk: F%ck Polyamory

WORK & CONNECT WITH AMANDA:

Peer Support Sessions

Amanda’s Instagram | Website

Amanda’s book, I Chopped Off My Tits

Become a Patreon of the podcast

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Episode #134: I'm Addicted To You Don't You Know That You're Toxic Monogamy Culture

I’ve been sharing more and more about toxic monogamy culture and it’s been a super polarizing subject. For many, they outright deny that it could even be a thing. For others, it’s been a massive lightbulb a-ha moment where everything starts to make sense about why they’ve felt so much resistance for so long. And other folks are like F*CK YESSSS THANK YOU FOR TALKING ABOUT THIS IT’S SUCH A THING AND NOBODY DOES!

It’s a lot to navigate through — the responses, the emotions and our own unique response when we’re met with the idea of toxic monogamy culture in the first place — and I get it! It was A LOT for me to wrap my head around too when I started unpacking it in my own life. So today, we’re deep diving into this incredibly important topic and getting into the juicy details once and for all.

Things I cover in todays episode:

  • how me just being who I am is in and of itself polarizing for so many folks

  • compulsory heteronormativity & monogamy

  • approaching life from a lens of curiosity

  • how toxic monogamy culture is possible in monogamy AND polyamory

  • my perspective on monogamy as a whole

  • WTF toxic monogamy actually is

  • The relationship escalator

  • Some prime examples of how toxic monogamy shows up in relationships


Episode #126: WTF To Do When You're Heartbroken AF

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On todays solo episode of the podcast, Amanda deep dives into her journey through heartbreak and grief over the last year of her life.

Grief is a beast. And the last year has been a year where collectively and individually, we’ve been grieving in a deeper way than ever before. Friendships have shifted. Longterm partnerships have ended. And dating? Don’t even get her started on it.

Check out todays episode for a deep behind the scenes dive into the struggles with heartbreak and grief that Amanda has faced recently and the major takeaways they have given her. If you’ve navigated heartbreak and the end of relationships in your life, this episode is for you, love.


LINKS MENTIONED IN TODAYS EPISODE:

Live Your F*ck Yes Life Community — become a Patron!

Sign up for a 1:1 peer support session

Let’s Talk Polyamory community zoom call

Youtube version of this episode

WORK & CONNECT WITH AMANDA:

Amanda’s Instagram | Website

Amanda’s book, I Chopped Off My Tits

1:1 coaching with Amanda — I am accepting 1-2 new coaching clients for 2021. Apply here to set up an initial call to see if this work together is a good fit.

Join her email list & get access to her fears & feels embodiment playlists

Episode #122: Breaking Down Attachment Styles with Jessica Fern

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I’ve been wanting to have a conversation around attachment theory and the various attachment styles on the podcast for a long time, and I knew as soon as I started reading Polysecure that I needed to have Jessica on to break it all down.

Jessica Fern is a Psychotherapist, Certified Clinical Trauma Professional, and author of the book Polysecure: Attachment, Trauma, and Non Monogamy. In her international private practice, Jessica works with individuals, couples, and people in multiple-partner relationships who no longer want to be limited by their reactive patterns, cultural conditioning, insecure attachment styles, and past traumas, helping them to embody new possibilities in life and love. Learn more at JessicaFern.com.

Things we talk about in todays episode:

  • Her work as a psychotherapist and what led her to focusing on attachment styles and polyamory

  • The four different types of attachment

  • Her perspective around identifying with our attachment styles versus the way to approach the path to building secure attachments

  • Ethical non monogamy and polyamory

  • How we develop our individual attachment styles

  • How to develop secure attachments in ethically non monogamous relationships

  • The difference between a secure base and a safe haven

  • The HEARTS action steps, stepping off the relationship escalator, evolution & growth and beyond


LINKS MENTIONED IN TODAYS EPISODE:

School of Fears, Feels & Fucks

Video version of the podcast

Buy Jessica’s book: Polysecure

Jessica’s website

Stepping Off The Relationship Escalator

WORK & CONNECT WITH AMANDA:

Amanda’s Instagram | Website

Amanda’s book, I Chopped Off My Tits

1:1 coaching with Amanda — I am accepting 1-2 new coaching clients for 2021. Apply here to set up an initial call to see if this work together is a good fit.

Join her email list & get access to her fears & feels embodiment playlists

Episode #121: Let's Talk Polyamory | A Conversation Around the Joys of Poly With My Husband

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In todays episode of our “Let’s Talk Polyamory” series of the podcast, we close out this mini series by talking about all of the benefits that polyamory has brought to our lives. Polyamory can bring up a lot of challenging things to the surface, but the rewards are amazing.

So today, for our final episode of this polyamory series, we deep dive into the gifts that polyamory has given us, individually and as a couple. Feeling heaps of gratitude and I hope you all love this episode as much as I loved recording it and reflecting on the last two and a half years of my life.


Episode #119: Let's Talk Polyamory | A Conversation Around Perception With My Husband

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In todays episode of our “Let’s Talk Polyamory” series of the podcast, we deep dive into all things perception. I get asked about this all of the time and I get it — I was wildly concerned about how I would be perceived / the reactions my friends and family would have before coming out as polyamorous. Not to mention how it would impact my online presence and beyond.

So we deep dive into all of that.

Tune in to todays episode to hear all about:

  • how we both felt about how we would be perceived before we came out as poly

  • the reactions of our friends and family

  • the mis-perceptions around ethical non monogamy & polyamory

  • how our own perceptions and biases around the things we are pulled towards can produce massive feelings of fear and shame

  • the root of why fear of perception has impacted us individually and beyond


Episode #118: Let's Talk Polyamory | A Conversation Around Jealousy With My Husband

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Ever since coming out as polyamorous, I’ve gotten SO many DMs and messages with really incredible questions from all of you. So I decided to do a special polyamory series of the podcast, and bring on my husband Kevan every week to talk about the biggest questions, fears & beyond that we receive to speak to these topics in a deeper way.

The number one question I get? How do you navigate jealousy?

So today, we break down our personal experiences around jealousy, what’s worked for us and the biggest tools that have supported us in navigating jealousy when moving from a monogamous framework to a polyamorous one.

This episode is a deep one (and one for you no matter how you choose to do relationships ‘cause we all experience jealousy to a certain degree, eh?)

So buckle up and let’s f*cking go!


Episode #115: 30 Things I Would Tell My Twenty Something Year Old Self

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…and the list goes ON on todays very special episode of the podcast when I celebrate turning 30 by sharing thirty things I would tell my twenty something year old self.

I’ve been doing an episode like this since I started the podcast and it’s always my favorite way to celebrate my birthday and take stock of the lessons I’ve learned so I can share them with all of you.

Writing these out, I got really in my feels — le duh, it’s me.

My twenties were a bumpy AF ride — and everything I’ve learned have come from so much:

The moments of celebration, alignment and fierce confidence….from coming out as bi & poly and owning my unique way of loving to publishing a book to getting my preventative double mastectomy to creating a life & businesses that I love and beyond.

And, of course, the moments of shame, overwhelm & not-enoughness…from my eating disorder cycle to navigating panic attacks to having my heart broken…and so many more things that I dive into and share on todays episode of the podcast.

Sending so much love to my younger self and to all of you — we’re all simply doing our best, eh? Let’s keep showing up through all the fears, the feels and, of course, the fucks.


LINKS MENTIONED IN TODAYS EPISODE:

LIVE YOUR F*CK YES LIFE VIRTUAL SUMMIT TICKETS — SELF LOVE & BODY CONFIDENCE EDITION

Live Your F*ck Yes Life Community — become a Patron!

Youtube version of the podcast

WORK & CONNECT WITH AMANDA:

Amanda’s Instagram | Website

Amanda’s book, I Chopped Off My Tits

1:1 coaching with Amanda — I am accepting 1-2 new coaching clients for 2021. Apply here to set up an initial call to see if this work together is a good fit.

Join her email list & get access to her fears & feels embodiment playlists

Episode #113: Let's Talk People Pleasing | A Solo Episode

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The “I Don’t Give A F*ck” mentality that everyone tells you you need to achieve in order to be a badass, confident goddess? It’s Bullsh*t.

For the longest time, I have self identified as a people pleaser. At first it was seen pretty exclusively through a negative lens — and in many ways, it was something I *really* struggled with. 

  • I gave so much of myself to everyone else that there was nothing left to give myself and I would walk around every day feeling so burnt out & irritated.

  • I unknowingly practiced co-dependency in many of my relationships and rarely got any of my needs or desires met — which led to heartache, resentment and beyond. 

  • And I was SO focused on what everyone else thought about me that it led me to years of eating disorder cycles, staying in toxic relationships, staying in the closet around my queerness and my polyamory and beyond.

...just to name a few.

In todays episode of the Live Your F*ck Yes Life podcast, I break down what people pleasing really is all about and how it CAN be a superpower of yours — you just have to know what tools to implement so you can fully step out of the darkness and into your unique magic.


LINKS MENTIONED IN TODAYS EPISODE:

Live Your F*ck Yes Life Community — become a Patreon!

Backup & fun new Instagram: @liveyourfuckyeslife

Video version of the podcast

Episode 85 with Taylor Nolan from the Bachelor

WORK & CONNECT WITH AMANDA:

Amanda’s Instagram | Website

Amanda’s book, I Chopped Off My Tits

1:1 coaching with Amanda — I am accepting 1-2 new coaching clients for 2021. Apply here to set up an initial call to see if this work together is a good fit.

Join her email list & get access to her fears & feels embodiment playlists

Episode #110: The Happiest Season? Not So Happy After All | A Solo Episode

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I was so excited to watch this movie. So excited. A holiday rom com center in around a queer couple on a major network AND one with many queer voices and folx behind the scenes? After a long and hard week, I was SO ready to get in my cozies, soak up the Christmas tree and have my big ol’ bi heart feel seen and get into the holiday spirit.

And instead of experiencing the feel good beautiful holiday love story I was so ready to receive, I spent almost the entirety of the movie feeling triggered, angry and frustrated. And also openly weeping because so much of this story depicted aspects of my own journey as a queer and polyamorous human and damn, was it hard for me to watch. 

I deep dive into this at length in todays of the Live Your F*ck Yes Life podcast, but here are the Coles notes (YES I mean Coles and not Cliffs. Y’all Americans took that shit from us Canadians and repurposed it and COLES CAME FIRST BITCHES).

For one — and this is MAJOR and damn am I so tired of it — there were hardly any BIPOC on screen (god forbid a main character — we need to do better) or any representation of body diversity — ‘cause all queer folx are obviously thin *rolls eyes* This movie centered around privilege in more ways than I know how to count and while it’s true that these experiences reflect *some* of the LGBTQ+ experience, it is not the norm BY ANY MEANS. It’s 2020. We need to do better.

Moving beyond those very deeply important things, this movie, as sooo many rom coms have been for years, was, in my opinion (and take that with whatever grain of salt ‘cause I can only ever speak from my own experiences and my understanding of this work from years of therapy and research ‘cause I’m a communication and relationship dynamics nerd), fraught with SO many problematic relationship dynamics: 

To name a few that I speak deeper around in todays episode:

  • intense lack of consent

  • emotional abuse that gets rewarded

  • bullying on SO many levels

  • divorce-shaming

  • homophobic parents who magically change their mind overnight

…and that’s just scratching the surface. 

And that can…all be, I suppose, downplayed because “it’s just a story! aren’t all rom coms or cheesy holiday movies like this?” or “at least there’s representation!” — I stand by this one for sure, and I know many lesbians and LGBTQ+ humans who are grateful for this piece of it so HELL YEAH, at least we got a minor win there. But for gods sake, the LGBTQ+ community is not new. We’ve been around for a fucking LONG time. We’ve been kept in the closet. Navigated so much of the shame and triggering experiences around coming out and it’s exhausting. This movie is, in my opinion, not for the queers — as it has been marketed to us for months. I honestly don’t know who it’s for. 

I’ve spent the last few days speaking with MANY of you in my DMs on Instagram and have been ruminating on my thoughts and after almost a hundred of you asked me to do an episode around my feelings, I knew I needed to turn on the mic. 

So head on over to todays episode of the pod to hear my deeper thoughts and feelings around this, and some personal anecdotes of my own life that I’ve never shared before.

I’d love to hear your thoughts after you listen. We’ll be talking more about this in the NEW Live Your F*ck Yes Life patreon private Facebook group too so if you’re a member (or hop in and become a new member, I’ll see you in there!

And for all of my fellow LGBTQ+ — no matter what your experiences or where you’re at in your own coming out journeys — I see you. I love you. You are so fucking enough. 


LINKS MENTIONED IN TODAYS EPISODE:

Live Your F*ck Yes Life Community — become a Patreon!

Live Your F*ck Yes Life Virtual Summit — replay access

Episode 100 - This Is Pride: We’re Here and We’re Queer

The Happiest Season on Hulu

Feel Good - watch on Netflix

WORK & CONNECT WITH AMANDA:

1:1 coaching with Amanda — I am accepting 2-3 new coaching clients come Jan 2021. Apply here to set up an initial call to see if it’s a good fit.

Amanda’s Instagram | Website

Amanda’s book, I Chopped Off My Tits

Join her email list & get access to her fears & feels embodiment playlists

Episode #106: Using Pleasure To Cope With Trauma And Grief - A Conversation with Alyssa Pressman

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Hi loves.

Todays episode is different — you may notice that there’s no typical intro music/snippets — because it didn’t feel right today. This week has been heavy. Hell, this year has been a fucking trip. And I wrestled with the idea of not releasing a podcast episode today — I wasn’t sure how we would be experiencing this post election day time. And when I woke up yesterday morning, in a mix of deep feels/sadness and hope for a brighter future in the US, I knew that this conversation, with a soul human of mine, was one that I needed to share with all of you today.

And with that, I’d like to introduce to you my friend and kindred spirit, Alyssa Pressman (she/her).

Alyssa is a Licensed Clinical Therapist & Certified Sex + Relationship Coach. She specializes in pleasure & joy post trauma, grief & with chronic illness. She loves supporting women in moving closer to themselves, to other people and to creating lives that feel in deep alignment with their unique desires. She is a BRCA1 mutation carrier like me, and a person living with chronic illness and pain. Reaching for joy and pleasure has been deeply healing for her. When not working, you can find her dancing, lounging, reading or cooking, usually scantily clad if not naked. She loves talking, learning and sharing on all things sex, relationships, death, healing & dark nights of the soul-you know, all the super casual things.

I invite you to take this one on a walk outside, or curl up with a cup of tea and absorb these words as a way to get away, for a moment, from the chaos. You are so loved.


Things we discuss in todays episode:

  • Alyssa’s wake up call around a chronic illness that made it impossible to have penetrative sex without serious pain in her younger twenties

  • How her work as a sex & relationship coach started to empower her sexually, in a more wholistic way

  • Pelvic floor struggles

  • BRCA and the other piece of the fear with our mutual diagnosis: ovarian cancer

  • Self pleasure practices & building a relationship with your pussy

  • How to claim your sexuality as your own and experience life changing pleasure

  • Redefining what sex and pleasure is

  • How to talk to your partner(s) around how to have more connected intimacy with one another

  • Boobs, the beauty of being un-partnered, using pleasure as a form of self care and beyond


Episode #105: All Things Polyamory Q&A | A Conversation With My Husband

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Is monogamy the only way to build a conscious, loving and lifelong relationship?

I used to believe it was the only way. But as you know, as I shared in episode 101, after 8 years together, we moved away from the monogamous framework and stepped into the ethical non monogamous space two years ago.

I know that people have MANY strong feelings around this (and it makes sense! Monogamy is what our society is built around and I definitely had my fair share of concerns and shame spiral around even the thought of considering it for years before we moved in that direction), and I’ve been getting LOADS of questions in my Instagram DMs so I decided to bring on a super special guest — my incredibly goofy and wonderful husband — to dig into what our unique journey into polyamory has looked like.

We are certainly not experts when it comes to polyamory, ethical non monogamy or relationships — you can listen to a bunch of previous podcast episodes around relationships, sex and beyond from the experts — but I do think that almost 10 years of going through the shit with a human entitles us to have some shit to say that’s worth sharing. And hell, we are certainly experts on OUR unique individual experiences in the world of ethical non monogamy and polyamory.

And today on the podcast, we deep dive into some pretty dense topics around relationship longevity, health and beyond and I am THE MOST excited to share this conversation with you all.

Things we discuss on todays episode:

  • My husband’s unique perspective around why polyamory and ENM feels aligned for him

  • How we opened the door to transition from YEARS of monogamy and how we ended up identifying as polyamorous

  • The difference between affairs/cheating and non monogamy

  • The multiple umbrellas of non monogamy: swinging, polyamory etc.

  • Attraction and relationship preferences are a spectrum as much as sexuality & gender is

  • A deep dive into some of the ups and downs of this journey, both as individuals and as a couple

  • ENM terms like unicorn hunting, triad vs. throuple, nesting/anchor partner, non hierarchical vs. hierarchical polyamory

  • Navigating jealousy and insecurities we’ve both experienced in our journey

  • Boundaries, communication and agreements & the path to figure that shit out being MESSY AF

  • All things fantasy/kink, how polyamory isn’t really so different than monogamy, ridiculous banter between the two of us and so much more.


Episode #102: A Deep Dive Into Relationship Dynamics, Polarity and Embodiment with Madelyn Moon

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I’m so thrilled to welcome Madelyn Moon back to the podcast to have this incredibly potent conversation and discussion. If you’re new to her work, Madelyn Moon is a walking permission slip: committed to radical truth telling in her top 50 ranked podcast, coaching practice and her various teaching platforms.

Her soul, being both really old and quite young at the same time, allows her to access wisdom beyond the present society and catalyze it into digestible, earthy knowledge for modern women and men.

Madelyn is on a spiritual quest to reveal the art of embodying opposite elements across every spectrum: water with fire, mystical with realism, alchemy with presence, alpha with omega, and light with dark. She knows there is no better metamorphosis than that of learning to welcome the entire human experience.

While the shedding of a skin may be a deep process, there is no need to make it so serious. Madelyn believes humor is one of the highest levels of spirituality and is committed to revealing how spirituality can be rich with pleasure, play, sensuality, intimacy and innate freedom.

Her work and story has been featured in hundreds of podcasts as well as various publications such as BBC, The Huffington Post, Teen Vogue, Thought Catalog, Nylon Magazine, The Daily Mail, Vice, Greatist, Men’s Health, PEOPLE and ABC News Nightline. She's hosted the popular Mind Body Musings podcast for six+ years, ranking in the Top-50 of ALL TIME in the U.S. and Great Britain in Self Improvement.

Things we discuss in todays episode:

  • What’s been going on in her world since first coming on in the podcast in season one

  • Separating from control and the art of surrendering

  • Shame surrounding easily falling in love with other humans

  • Love for the sake of love and how we can break free from outdated perspectives of love

  • The beauty and importance of deep diving in the pain while still remaining open

  • What relationship patterns can teach you about yourself

  • How to develop presence

  • Her experience leaving a relationship after she had just moved into a house with him.

  • And all things gene keys, feminine energy, archetypes and beyond.


LINKS MENTIONED IN TODAYS EPISODE:

Madelyns’s Instagram | Podcast

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Free Embodiment Practice: http://maddymoon.com/feminine

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Episode #101: I'm Coming Out...Again | A Solo Episode

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Happy start to season 5 of the podcast!!

It’s fucking hard to believe we’re already 5 seasons in — can you believe it?

And we are kicking things off with a deep dive into an area of my personal self and my identity that I have yet to share publicly. It is something that has felt a long time coming and I’m so excited and ready to share about this part of myself.

So yeah, I’m coming out. Again. Big time.

As always, on this podcast, we tackle taboo subjects that aren’t spoken to very often. And we’re going in that space this season, DEEP. And I ask that you come in, as always, with an open heart and mind. Create space in yourself to learn and be curious. This is how we grow beyond our wildest dreams, my loves. Let’s do the damn thing.

Things I cover in today’s episode:

  • How the podcast is evolving as we head into this new season

  • My fear in sharing this aspect of myself with you all

  • What it means to live as my fullest unapologetic, fuck yes self

  • Navigating rejection for being who you are (by others and by your own self!)

  • Ownership and toxic programming in relationships

  • Ethical non monogamy, polyamory, self discovery and beyond!


Episode #83: Is Change Really So Bad? My Awakening In The Last Six Months | A Solo Episode

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For so long, I viewed change as a bad thing. Something to fear. Steer clear from.

Have you felt that way too?

It can be so terrifying to rise up into our full potential and make shifts in our life, even when we know we need to. And so often, we let that fear hold us back from taking any action and instead, we tell ourselves why we’re not good enough and self sabotage from moving in that direction.

I have been doing so much transformative work on myself the last six months — work I NEVER imagined possible and have had A F*CK TON of realizations, aha moments and a full and complete coming home to myself in a way I never imagined possible.

I had planned something completely different for today’s episode, but this has been so on my heart and I am finally ready to share with all of you my complete and utter awakening that has taken place the last few months. And I’ll be honest — I’m really scared to share this piece of my heart. It’s probably the most vulnerable I have ever been on the podcast. But that’s what living your f*ck yes life is to me.

More in this week’s episode my loves. Grab a cup of coffee or tea and come join me for this one.


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