eating disorders

Episode #115: 30 Things I Would Tell My Twenty Something Year Old Self

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…and the list goes ON on todays very special episode of the podcast when I celebrate turning 30 by sharing thirty things I would tell my twenty something year old self.

I’ve been doing an episode like this since I started the podcast and it’s always my favorite way to celebrate my birthday and take stock of the lessons I’ve learned so I can share them with all of you.

Writing these out, I got really in my feels — le duh, it’s me.

My twenties were a bumpy AF ride — and everything I’ve learned have come from so much:

The moments of celebration, alignment and fierce confidence….from coming out as bi & poly and owning my unique way of loving to publishing a book to getting my preventative double mastectomy to creating a life & businesses that I love and beyond.

And, of course, the moments of shame, overwhelm & not-enoughness…from my eating disorder cycle to navigating panic attacks to having my heart broken…and so many more things that I dive into and share on todays episode of the podcast.

Sending so much love to my younger self and to all of you — we’re all simply doing our best, eh? Let’s keep showing up through all the fears, the feels and, of course, the fucks.

LINKS MENTIONED IN TODAYS EPISODE:

LIVE YOUR F*CK YES LIFE VIRTUAL SUMMIT TICKETS — SELF LOVE & BODY CONFIDENCE EDITION

Live Your F*ck Yes Life Community — become a Patron!

Youtube version of the podcast

WORK & CONNECT WITH AMANDA:

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Amanda’s book, I Chopped Off My Tits

1:1 coaching with Amanda — I am accepting 1-2 new coaching clients for 2021. Apply here to set up an initial call to see if this work together is a good fit.

Join her email list & get access to her fears & feels embodiment playlists

Episode #113: Let's Talk People Pleasing | A Solo Episode

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The “I Don’t Give A F*ck” mentality that everyone tells you you need to achieve in order to be a badass, confident goddess? It’s Bullsh*t.

For the longest time, I have self identified as a people pleaser. At first it was seen pretty exclusively through a negative lens — and in many ways, it was something I *really* struggled with. 

  • I gave so much of myself to everyone else that there was nothing left to give myself and I would walk around every day feeling so burnt out & irritated.

  • I unknowingly practiced co-dependency in many of my relationships and rarely got any of my needs or desires met — which led to heartache, resentment and beyond. 

  • And I was SO focused on what everyone else thought about me that it led me to years of eating disorder cycles, staying in toxic relationships, staying in the closet around my queerness and my polyamory and beyond.

...just to name a few.

In todays episode of the Live Your F*ck Yes Life podcast, I break down what people pleasing really is all about and how it CAN be a superpower of yours — you just have to know what tools to implement so you can fully step out of the darkness and into your unique magic.

LINKS MENTIONED IN TODAYS EPISODE:

Live Your F*ck Yes Life Community — become a Patreon!

Backup & fun new Instagram: @liveyourfuckyeslife

Video version of the podcast

Episode 85 with Taylor Nolan from the Bachelor

WORK & CONNECT WITH AMANDA:

Amanda’s Instagram | Website

Amanda’s book, I Chopped Off My Tits

1:1 coaching with Amanda — I am accepting 1-2 new coaching clients for 2021. Apply here to set up an initial call to see if this work together is a good fit.

Join her email list & get access to her fears & feels embodiment playlists

Episode #108: The Truth Around Eating Disorders & Coming Home To Our Bodies with Lindsey Hall

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Last week on the podcast, I shared about my personal eating disorder recovery story, and today, I am so thrilled to welcome a friend, ally and all around advocacy queen around all things eating disorders and recovery to expand the conversation and deep dive into the truth around what these cycles look like and how body toxicity and diet culture has impacted all of us in a myriad of ways.

I know many of you are as excited as I am to have her on the podcast, but if you’re unfamiliar with Lindseys work, I am so honored to get to be the one to introduce her to your world. She’s truly the most amazing combination of truth teller and tender hearted soul with a heart of gold, and I know her words and this conversation are going to seep into your soul as much as they have mine.

Lindsey Hall (she/her) is an award-winning eating disorder recovery speaker and writer, focusing on what she refers to as "the nitty gritty topics often not discussed." Having struggled with the eating disorder cycle for many years, Lindsey has actively been in recovery since 2014, and is the author behind "I Haven't Shaved in Six Weeks," an award-winning blog written to humanize the stigmas of eating disorders, treatment, PCOS, and recovery.

Through her writing, she has had the privilege of speaking around the world on nuanced topics such as Body Dysmorphic Disorder, Drunkorexia, Exercise Addiction, Orthorexia and other eating disorder behaviors, and has been featured in publications including TODAY Show, CBS, Washington Post, Bustle, Cosmopolitan, Women's Health, SheKnows, NEDA, SHAPE Magazine, Refinery29, Recovery Warriors, Project Heal, and more.

Her future dreams in recovery advocacy are focused on owning and converting a van to take it on the road so she can report on treatment centers and eating disorder resources around the country in a dream she's envisioned as "Recovery on the Road." Currently, she resides in Boulder, Colorado, with her Benjamin Button rescue dog (the vets have no idea his age), a loveable, runt kitten, and a lovely community of folx around her.

Things we talk about in todays episode:

  • Lindseys eating disorder and recovery story

  • The cycle of eating disorders & how and why it shows up for most humans

  • The detrimental nature to our psyches around all things diet culture

  • Ways to support your own healing process

  • The importance of kindness, learning & owning your shortcomings

  • The ups and downs of navigating movement & exercise through recovery

  • The post of Lindseys that changed the game for me in my own recovery journey this year

  • Learning about the brain and how it impacts how we see our bodies

  • A moment of my recovery story I’ve never talked about before

  • Triggering messaging and foods, body toxicity, and beyond.

LINKS MENTIONED IN TODAYS EPISODE:

Live Your F*ck Yes Life Summit Replay

Lindseys Instagram | Blog

Lindseys email:

Lindseys cereal post

American Murder on Netflix

WORK & CONNECT WITH AMANDA:

Amanda’s Instagram | Website

1:1 coaching

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Episode #107: My Eating Disorder Recovery Story | A Solo Episode

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This episode is coming out almost 5 years to the day of my rock bottom of my eating disorder — something I didn’t realize until I started recording this week.

I haven’t really talked about this subject and my story around my eating disorder in its entirety on the podcast before. Mostly because I haven’t been ready. I haven’t known how to put into words what the experience has been for me because, really, as anyone navigating the cycle of eating disorders and/or body dysmorphia and shame around our bodies knows, the recovery process is an ongoing one.

Today, on the podcast, I share my story and what my recovery process these last 5 years have really looked like. And I deep dive into what the last 3 months in particular have taught me about what it can really mean to come home to your body and feel liberated in your own skin.

Whether you’ve experienced or are in the throws of an eating disorder or not, if you are a human who has ever felt shame around your body, if you’ve struggled to love and accept yourself for all of yourself and have lived your life from a place of shoulds and overwhelm, this episode is for you.

Episode #104: Five Years Ago I Hit Rock Bottom And Now I'm Here | A Solo Episode

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I had planned an entirely different episode for today and in true Amanda following the gut tugs fashion, I needed to share from the depths of my heart around what this move has shown me about the power of conscious thought shifts, inner work and small simple shifts that brought me from rock bottom to here.

5 years ago, I was:

  • in the depths of a cycle of eating disorders and body dysmorphia

  • having panic attacks weekly

  • working 7 part time jobs and just barely paying my bills

  • just coming off of a move (my last one) that was FILLED with breakdowns and fights with my husband

  • burnt out, overwhelmed and in a perpetual exhaustion cycle

On Saturday, I moved into my dream home. A home that 5 years ago, I never imagined I could possibly have no matter where my life took me. This move — something that had it been the me of 5 years ago navigating it — would have brought me to my knees with stress, overwhelm and exhaustion. And instead, I moved through it with ease and light.

And on todays episode, I share all about my journey to help illuminate for you how to get unstuck on your own.

Episode #91: Embodying Confidence With Your Closet & All Things Personal Style with Melanie Kluger

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Struggle to figure out how to embody your f*ck yes self when it comes to your clothes? Me too. I got so inspired by Melanie and all of her wisdom all around this and immediately revamped my closet post conversation. Get ready to get inspired AF.

Melanie Kluger is a renowned personal stylist, best selling author, online course creator and closet connoisseur. She is a leading expert in her field and helps women from all over the globe with their closets and their style. Melanie is the creator and founder of THE CONFIDENT CLOSET, a 6-week-long program to help you get to the bottom of why you have a closet that is underwhelming, overwhelming, and/or not an accurate representation of who you are. Melanie’s approach is refreshing, body-positive, and gives you an answer to the question, “Why do I have a closet full of clothes and nothing to wear?”

After working with women for over 15 years, Melanie realized that no matter who you are or what you look like, the insecurities and frustrations are the same. We all want to feel amazing in our clothes, and we all get frustrated with our wardrobes. She set out to change that and has been fullsteam-ahead ever since.

Things that we talk about in today’s episode:

  • Our shared background in theatre and how it has impacted our path to confidence in very different ways

  • How to embody our most confident selves

  • The three beauty basics

  • Where to even start when it comes to developing a personal style

  • The struggles we navigate as womxn going clothing shopping/when clothes in our closet no longer fit us

  • Spring cleaning with intention

  • A huge aha moment I had about something that’s been in my closet for years that brings up so much shame for me

LINKS MENTIONED IN TODAY’S EPISODE:

Unapologetically Confident

Melanie’s Instagram | Website/Blog - https://www.theconfidentcloset.com/ | Private Facebook Group

Free Gift from Melanie - https://style.theconfidentcloset.com/itfactor

WORK WITH AMANDA:

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Episode #84: A Conversation Around Body Shame & Why We Hate Our Bodies with Jessica Demasi

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In honor of #NEDAweek having just passed, I’m so excited to be exploring all things body shame on todays podcast.

I couldn’t have had a better person to have this podcast than Jessica Demasi — a fan favorite over here at the Live Your F*ck Yes life podcast. Not only does she bring a super important research based and clinical approach to the subject matter as a Certified Eating Psychology Coach who specializes in Functional Endocrinology and as a fellow advocate to say FU to diet culture dogma, but she also shares so vulnerably about her personal relationship with the topic at hand.

This is a conversation every single womxn needs in their life. So share with your friends and let’s deep dive.

Things we discuss in today’s episode:

  • Our personal stories around body shame and eating disorders

  • Why Jess broke up with her husband early on in their dating relationship

  • Where the root of our pain and shame really lies

  • The negative patterns we create in our lives and how the f*ck to get out of them

  • Our obsession with therapy and doing the inner work

  • Buffering and how we so often do that with food and exercise

  • Her amazeballs analogy of surfing

  • The power of AND

  • The magic of the mess and how to embrace the shiz out of it

  • Tools to implement into your life to start the radical process of loving yourself

Episode #57: Why Celery Juice is a Load of Bullshit | A Solo Episode

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DO YOU STRUGGLE WITH OVEREATING?

For the longest time, food consumed my life. I was OBSESSED with every diet trend — the celery juice craze y’all are sooooo in love with? I would have 100% been on that train a few years back.

I had convinced that the only way that I could be “healthy” was to eat bird food and rock every diet trend in sight (which caused my mental health and bank account to suffer REAL quick), and eating quickly became my least favourite activity because it truly controlled my life.

Not to mention it led to years of yo yo-ing like crazy.

Why I’m so AGAINST the trendy diets and health hacks like celery juice? They more often than not ‘cause our bodies to go into distress and lead to the inverse of our intentions: OVEREATING.

Do you struggle with this too? You are SO not alone.

Now I am NOT saying this is true for everyone on the planet. We ALLLLL have different needs and triggers. But I know my gals, my overachieving all or nothing, yo yo dieter babes. If you’re not that and don’t struggle with this shiz, move on sistah ;) But if this resonates hard core, this episode is for YOU.


Things I tackle in todays episode:

  • How this trend has become so huge without any science backing it up

  • How this craze reflects a lack in critical thinking happening in society

  • The power of the placebo effect

  • My own history overcoming chronic eczema

  • Debunking the myth of this craze

Episode #8: Eating disorders, the path to recovery & self compassion with Rini Frey

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EPISODE SNEAK PEEK

" It all started with a cleanse for me...it propelled me into this whole dieting world. I went raw vegan for a while and this is what I consider my anorexic phase. I was eating nothing but raw vegetables and cold soups. I was so malnourished and I held onto that for over a year."

Rini Frey is a fitness instructor, TRX trainer and Eating Disorder Recovery online coach, in addition to being a wife and a momma to her Boston Terrier Bruce. She believe that all bodies are beautiful and deserve to be labeled as fit. Being fit and healthy is a feeling more so than a look and she is beyond excited to be part of the body positive movement.

Her entire adult life was plagued by various eating disorders and now that she is recovered, she's made it her mission to help women embrace their bodies as they are. To focus on what their bodies are capable of, instead of what they look like. 

Here are a few things we discussed in today’s episode:

  • Her journey battling anorexia and bulimia
  • How she started her recovery process and the specific habits she had to break
  • Why she was afraid of eating carrots
  • Her favorite small daily actions that help her feel at home in her body
  • What to say to/do with your inner mean girl
  • Why overexercise can shut down your natural hormonal patterns
  • Her thoughts on the body positivity movement
  • Why I went gluten free
  • Intuitive eating -- how does it work? Is it right for you? 

LINKS MENTIONED IN THE EPISODE

Bullymake -- use code: LYFYL for $10 off your box

Mastering your mean girl

Rini's instagram // website 

Haleakala volcano

Lanikai pillbox hike

 

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